Getting Used To Being In Charge

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I used to have a nice picture of Krishna on the mantlepiece in the living room. It was there for maybe five years.

Recently, during a thorough cleaning of my apartment, this picture was put into the pile of images that seems to spring up in some corner wherever I am living.

We have moved to a deeper understanding of the Vedas and Krishna that no longer requires paying obeisances to his picture. Thanks to my ongoing training with Kris, we understand that all sensory experience is allegorical for deep, inner expressions of our wider selves.

It turns out that we are the boss in our lives. I realize that to some this may seem a ludicrous idea. Why would we create all the dreadful nonsense we experience if we were the boss in our lives?

Without going into detail here, Kris, along with many other channel Sources, has explained quite convincingly that we each create our own experiences. For instance:


Seth: “You form YOUR own reality. That reality contributes to the experience of others, but each of you possesses a unique, original stance in space and time that is yours alone in quite practical terms, regardless of time’s relative existence.”

The Nature of The Psyche, session 800, by Jane Roberts © L. Davies Butts


Kris has been at pains to explain to us that everything we have projected allegorically as the work of the gods and goddesses is actually our own unacknowledged power to create our own experience within all the vast possibilities of the Great Oneness or All That Is.


“And you do the exact same thing but you do not notice. Instead, you have collectively projected the gifts of the gods, this great power of creation, onto the very icons or avatars, the depictions of these beings. All of these supernatural beings, regardless of the background, the culture, are in many ways caricatures that are meant to reawaken your own abilities in these areas.

And as you have continued to convince yourselves of the separation of whom you are with your own divine selves, you have come to believe you are ineffective, you are lacking in the power to design your reality, to design your experience.”

KRIS – The Deep Self II – #1 – August 28, 2017 – © Serge Grandbois


What is slowly dawning on me is that if the gods and goddesses and Krishna are really allegorical projections pointing back to my own abilities, then I’m the boss of my life.

Not just the boss, but the boss with the mostest! I have all of the abilities depicted in the gods and goddesses, Krishna, and on and on.

As a student, in my youth, of mythologies around the globe, I am somewhat aware of the vast and incredible array of attributes and abilities we have invested, as a race, in these projections.

Getting back to the point, though, I am the boss of my life. This comes home to me every day when I walk into the front room that used to hold the picture of Krishna.

Without particularly realizing it, I had been nodding my head and making mental obeisances to dear Lord Krishna every time I entered the room. This has been going on for years.

Now, there is no one to greet and surrender to. It’s just a habit I guess, but this has been going on for several weeks now. When I enter the sitting room, part of me still looks around carefully to see if there is any image of Krishna available, on the desk, in the bookshelf. Isn’t there someone I can bow down to?

What has happened is I have realized that I am the boss of my life. Of course, we are part of the Great Oneness, but our present expression is an individuating aspect or allegory of All That Is and we are in charge.

Exploring our potential and marveling at our creations is only the beginning of what we can do at these levels. But I can’t change on a dime and I am still getting used to the idea that I’m the boss.

If I don’t do what my family wants, or what my boss wants, or what my dear, dead parents wanted, or what the news seems to suggest. If nobody tells me what to do, what the hell am I going to do?

I’m not sure I feel qualified to run my life. I will certainly need some kind of book, ‘Operating Manual For Human Life’, or maybe ‘Human Life For Dummies’.


Understanding that I am a joyful and integral aspect of All That Is, exploring who and what I am, and choosing who I am becoming, and also that I have all the loving support and resources of my Deep Self at my back, means that fear and anxiety are being squeezed out of my state of mind and daily experience.

There is just no place for discounting myself or anxiety about the world in the face of these underlying realities that I am allowing myself to perceive. In any moment, however challenging, I can step back into my own beingness. “I am Self in this realm. Of this, there is no doubt. I am Self in all realms without any doubt.

This invocation of my expanded identity instantly modifies any situation and opens up new possibilities.

The other tool that works dependably for me is to practice effortless mindfulness without judgment – as described by Kris. For this practice, I have been gifted by a wonderful totem animal in the form of a butterfly.
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My butterfly totem is a great help when I am practicing effortless mindfulness without judgment. He sits on my head and, after getting settled calmly spreads his wings slowly in rhythm with my breathing.

With him on my head, I naturally breath more slowly and deeply and release any superficial judgments. After all, here I am with a huge butterfly on my head. How can I judge anybody else’s situation?


What comes out of these moments of allowance and acceptance has been life-changing. Being present in the now without judgment turns out to be a really big deal.

A dear friend and I read Eckart Tolle’s book ‘The Power of Now’ many years ago and I recall vividly sitting across from her and saying, ‘Okay, we’re in the Now. Now what?

The deal is though, that being present to ourselves in the now, without judgment – very important – means that we have opened up the connections between our present idea of who we are and the Deep Self – who we really are.

Through this opening starts to flow insights, inspiration, impulses, and realizations, all accompanied by massive and joyful love and support.

This is the ’now what?’ of getting into the now, realizing we are in charge, that we have loving, mystical support, and starting to make some informed choices.

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